154: for teacher pang

before anything, happy belated mother's day and happy belated teachers day too.

 i've been bz marking exam papers for the past week..but before that, i was completing a commission by a friend. she asked for particular details in the doodle. she even gave me the list of things she wanted to be included in the drawing. sangat bersemangat! love that about her...heeh so all the things that you can see in the drawing is her idea...:D :D

i thought at first that this will make my job easier..but as it turned out, it was tougher. with the small scale n all.. but at last i figured it out n alhamdulillah she liked it (although she would prefer a bit more changes) huhu i learned that i should not take sketches lightly next time..huhu

so here it is...

then she wanted it to be coloured. i was so nervous coz i know i suck in colouring..but heck i give it a try anyway.. and tadaaa

in the mean time, im still trying to push myself to write again in my blog Pointless Pursuit (mmg rasa pointless da puunnn) n there's been a couple of drafts...but huh im old...n i need to read more stuff.

153: second doodle for encik asrul

ni lagi satu commission untuk encik asrul. dulu dia ada tempah 1 doodle untuk print atas mug..sepanjang melukis tu, rasa macma tak puas hati saja..i tried really hard to try different things to doodle macam lace-patterns..tapi alih2 lace tu ja la yang different...yang lain sama saja...cuma lay out doodle ni berbeza...which turned out a bit serious..urghhh nasib baik encik asrul terima..

 lepas ni, akan buat commission doodle dari rakan guru pulak.. harap2 lepas ni boleh dapat lebih banyak commission doodle lagi :) komik2 n ilustrasi2 dalam conteng2 sketchbook terpaksa tunggu lah huhuhu

 

152: mama'ku

that's me...in my mother's arms in '86.

and here's my version of the picture in ink.

u raise me up by ~sitiwaznahnaan on deviantART

being a mom myself has opened my eyes to a whole new perspective of my own mother..i love her more now..dan sedikit segan pd dia...n sedikit mcm bole friend2 gitu heheheh

i wana buy my mom all the things she wants...but she has more money than me...whenever i wana gv her money, she just giggled. tsk.

151: anyone, anywhere, anything

desperation by ~sitiwaznahnaan on deviantART

" i need someone to talk to...anyone will do.."

"i need somewhere to go...anywhere will do..."

"i need something to do to distract me...anything will do..."

at times i feel like that...but most of the time, the answer is just inside home. kadang2, terfikir juga, kenapa aku selalu lupa bahwa ada 1 itu tempat aku mengadu, 1 escapism, 1 pekerjaan dan perbuatan yang boleh menenangkan aku..?

"Sufficient for me is Allah ; there is no deity except Him. On Him I have relied, and He is the Lord of the Great Throne."
9:129

HasbiAllah.

150: love at first sight

love at first sight by ~sitiwaznahnaan on deviantART
i draw this 3 weeks after labour. the image had been bugging my head and pushed me to draw it. so i did. the reason why i wanted to draw this scene was i wanted to show two things that came across my mind that time

to be honest, the first thing that i thought was: " oh my gosh, Ya Allah, there REALLY WAS a human being in me for the past 9 months!!"
and that thought came out of my mouth: "wah, betul2 ada orang dalam perut ku..~!" *dalam keadaan sangat lemah dan longlai* n the nurses laughed...

but then i thought about:

1) the real love at first sight
masa iyyad keluar, tali pusatnya berbelit2..dan apparently dia sangat berat bagi nurse tu (3.55kg) jadi dia simpan sekejap on my then empty belly...n whoa~
cinta pandang pertama sangat bila tengok iyyad..hati rasa kembang kempis saja. kepenatan dan kesakitan yang amat sangat tu hilang beberapa saat sebelum dia diambil semula dan nurse tu sambung kerja nya menjahit...perghh ok thats another story.

2) pantang
the reason why i got to hold iyyad before he got cleaned up was tali pusatnya berbelit. dan aku hairan sangat, perkara pertama nurse tu cakap berkenaan tali pusat berbelit tu ialah "ni mesti suami kamu tidak berpantang ni..dia pernah lilit tualanya di lehernya kan?" i was too weak to answer. i meant to answer her this: "what in the world made u think that caused this?" kadang2 pantang2 ni boleh buat pening juga... :(

u see the two nurses i drew at the back, actually, it was more than two nurses...it was like a circus there...orang keluar masuk saja, and everyone who came in take a peek over what's "going on" huahuaaahahahah