134: the village

i think this is somewhat a 'continuation' of this one

that was the last drawing i get to finish during invigilating sugarplums..sad...i got fewer sessions this year. and i dont think i was that much inspired. ntah kenapa la..

beberapa hari di rumah lepas habis mengawas, aku menjahit a couple of mini name cushions. i wanted to hang them at my new work stations for next year. and then, aku potong2 felt tu menjadi satu set alphabets;...i dont even know for what...but i finished it anyway...maybe i'll share them here next time.

133: priceless 2

*komik kali ni di baca seperti komik biasa. left to right.
lepas aku suda tau camna rasa baby bergerak2 dalam perut, aku slalu bagitau encik husband. dia pun teruja mau tau camana rasanya. cuma kadang2, bila dia suda pegang, baby diam2.

then, one day, baby gerak2, aku pun cepat2 suruh encik husband pegang perut..sabar dia menunggu..bila baby 'tendang' lagi sekali tepat di tempat tangannya, muka dia pun berubah...muka nya macam ekspresi kartun manga yg tiba2 mata berkaca2 dan mulut senyum kambing! comel sangat!!! hahahah that's my priceless life scene number two :)

132: priceless 1

cerita sebenarnya:
masa minggu ke 21, aku p my monthly check up di klinik. dia tanya, "suda ada rasa baby tendang2 ka?"..aku tanya balik "macam mana rasa tendang2 tu?" first pregnancy, susah mo tau...tp kakak2 cakap, dia rasa macam kena sentuh di kulit perut, di jentik..aku pun menunggu la masa2 baby ku mampu 'menjentik' dinding perut aku.

1 hari tu, sedang aku duduk2 di meja ku di bilik guru, membuat kerja (konon) tiba2 aku rasa cam "dub!"<----- tiada cara lain untuk menerangkan rasa jentikan tu..

first2 tu, aku ingat, eh..ni rasa gas bergerak dalam perut ka (mau kentut konon?)..pastu aku letak tangan aku atas perut..."DUB!"

then, i knew it! baby tendang!! ohhhhhhhh~~~ :)

priceless...

131: mama's happy face

drawn this while invigilating. i wore this loose blouse and skirt during the third day of sugarplum :)

130: smaller and smaller

these two are the last of the small-alphabet series. i wasnt even pretty sure if people can get the point of these two
click to view

i'm invigilating sugarplums again this year. i'll upload some sketches from the sessions soon.

129: mama says 'aluuuu...!'

previous post sy merungut diri sendiri x pandai mewarna..ni yg cuba lagi ni.hahahah macam x jadi la juga...

this is not a scanned image.

oh. this is somewhat my self-portrait la kan..baby bump nampak lebih besar in real life. but looks smaller in this picture. and the red nose is true...i dont know why but my nose keeps on 'appearing' red since baby got into 18> weeks..but im okay with it :)

128: the city i am in

ONE TWO THREE

GO GO

GO

hehehe kononnya, semangat sekarang makin bagus. I dont know why. But it's a good feeling. Harap-harap boleh stay positive macam ni sampai baby lahir :)

saya harap, satu hari nanti, saya dapat mahirkan diri mewarna lukisan hitam putih saya. ntah la bila. hahaha asyik bagi alasan saja. ;P

127: girls think too much?

we dont over-think things now, do we? heheheh

126: run away

Finally!!! something I am able to finish!!
i know it's not much, but it's a sign that my baby isnt the reason of my 'hiatus'..heheh

baby's now approximately 20 weeks. since july, i went through a bit rough early stage due to my body adapting to pregnancy-hood. I dont exactly know why i am explaining this here, but I am excited to be a mother that still draws. and I hope it will be like that.

125: the small L

as usual, my comics should be read from top to down, left to right.

C stands for cancer
A stands for Art
L stands for Life
more to come, insyaAllah.

ps: sy sangat mengalu-alukan anda memberikan padangan anda.

124: for co-op day

sambil berhenti sekejap dari melukis small-alphabet-series; aku tolong member buat kan keychain2 ni untuk co-op day sekolah. tah dia suka ka tidak

aku cuba buat byk lagi la lepas siapkan lukisan komik tu lagi

123: the small A

as usual, my comics should be read from top to down, left to right.

yeyeyy! my 123 post! :)

I take art-theft seriously.
you can perceive this cartoon anyway you like.

121: asrul's comm-->mug

look how this turned out!! im sooo happy :D

120 : the small c

as usual, my comics should be read from top to down, left to right. sorry 'bout that.

aku harap kawan2 aku yg jadi doktor tidak akan jadi macam ini
ada komen lain? mari

ps. this is a test for a series of this called 'the small-alphabets' project

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sini ada sedikit kata2 untuk go along with this comic

120: asrul's comm

done this for a friend's friend. design for a mug; i think. hope it'll turn out okay.

119: komisyen sara

ni low resolution scanned picture untuk komisyen cik sara. ewan ni bf dia. jujur, aku sangat susah untuk siap kan piece ni. susah nak explain kenapa.

harap dia suka..

118: cari diri

akan datang: commission2 yang baru siap huahuaaaaaaaaaaaaa

akan datang lain: mula dengan commission menjahit benda beeessaaarrr punya

akan datang lusa: sekolah.

sekolah sekolah sekolah sekolah

cari diri.

117: forced to flats

I cant wear high heels anymore. my feet hurts (even) after a few minutes (only!) standing in the kitchen, beside the window, even in the shower---basically everywhere. let alone in classes.

hurm. no, its not because of that.

anyway. here's a flat i purchased a few days ago. and only this morning that i realized; one of my colleagues at school has similar shoes. and i decided to put some adjustment.

this is the original flats (vincci ja; apa2 la)
i thought to have it this way at first
but mr husband said it's too big [and therefore: weird]

so i tried this; only this time i didnt asked mr husband anymore and

went with it anyway~

not wanting to give up totally on the first try, i changed it into a handphone strap/thingy/whatever..(not)perfect for my new red-coloured phone *that i used to take these photos; which explains the blurriness*
mr husband came home and saw the newly 'adjusted' shoes and said "eh! cantik! serious cakap"

hehehe best la ada team mate/room mate/house mate.

ps: sara, i promise you, 30% lagi akan siap lukisan itu :|

116: more more

so much for the 'twelve to go'...i only sew another four of the aliens and decided to move on with the other projects and also completing old ones.

for anyone who's interested to buy these fellas, please email me at sitiwaznahnaan@gmail.com. the rest of the unsold aliens will be sold at a local event for special education fund.

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edit: ukuran; tinggi 11cm (tidak termasuk reben/tali), lebar 9cm (dari hujung tangan ke tangan)..harga RM7 tidak termasuk penghantaran

115: more aliens

these are some more aliens. done between time-offs from the drawing commission. 5 down, 12 to go.

i know, you wont like all the things i put up in this website, but it's important that i continue to put my interest first. after all, that was the reason i start to build this site- for me to show what i am capable of. whether people who come here will like it or not; has to come second.

that aside, thank you all of you for spending your time viewing my not-that-great stuffs. :D

ps. fabrics are bought from mybotangshop

114: all the love in the world

sudah lama tidak melukis lukisan garis-garis halus. jadi dapat idea aritu, aku hold dulu benda2 lain, sori.

happy [school] holidays.

aku mau menulis balik macam dulu.

tapi banyyyaaakk idea melukis. *macam la semua akan direalisasikan. cis*

113: diam

kami lingkungan para guru, sesungguhnya, kalau sorang berkongsi tentang situasi nya, mesti disambut oleh guru lain. sorang guru rekemen blog ini. jadi aku pun pergi check it out. oh, aku sungguh boleh relate pada cerita-ceriti nya sebab murid2 aku pun puaka belaka.

tapi sesungguhnya, guru pun banyak kekurangannya. aku akui itu. (aku kurang bersetuju bila ada guru yang melarang aku mengakui kesalahan ku di hadapan pelajar; sebab bagi aku, aku mau mereka jujur dengan diri mereka, oleh itu aku harus jujur dengan diri sendiri. aku mau mereka belajar meminta maaf, oleh itu aku harus meminta maaf jika salah)

eh, meleret pula. tujuan aku cuma mau tunjukkan satu situasi dimana guru nya pula puaka. itu pun kalau dapat difahami..


ps(blog penulisan aku bersawang. baru sedar kenapa. sebab disini makin banyak perkataan)

entri untuk meraikan kemenangan akan datang laen kali :> but thank u for congratulating me hoyehhh

112: "tudung dan saya" [part two]

Ini sambungan dari ini

Dalam aku mencari2 diri..tiba2 datang ini:

Then came the affordable hair-straightening. It was also my time to continue my studies abroad; in New Zealand. Finally, my neck's free. But the problem was, i was actually more towards showing off my "beautiful" hair; instead of free-ing my neck. pfft.

tahun gila.

Kalau perangai aku buruk dengan tudung, apatah lagi tanpa tudung. I was becoming worse. I know I was still finding my way 'home'. Somehow I was lost. Again.

Hati tetap kosong. Minda tercari2.

Sebenarnya aku cukup beruntung kerana ketika di sekolah menengah aku duduk di asrama dan dikelilingi kawan2 yang baik2 belaka. dan kami di latih membuat 'rutin' yang sepatutnya membuat aku seorang insan yang berguna. Solat 5 waktu dan ibadat2 lain; berbaik2 sesama orang; dan berfikir.

tapi semenjak aku tinggalkan sekolah itu; aku susah untuk teruskan rutin2 itu. tapi syukur aku masih berfikir. Aku terus mencari. Sampai di New Zealand, sekali lagi aku bersyukur aku ditemukan seorang rakan yang sentiasa mengingatkan aku pada Dia. But still, I was empty. I got into more tangles. Sambung sampai lah aku balik Malaysia.

2007-2009 adalah antara tahun2 yang aku gila. Tapi aku masih mencari.


Meanwhile, I was continuing my studies by entering the practicum phase. I taught in a school in KL for 3 months. Little did I know that I would find my trigger there.


That was the scene that pushed me more to question myself and my belief. The kid; 13 years old decided to ask me the question I had been asking myself too (dlm tidak sedar), the question was: "...why arent you wearing tudung like the other Muslim teachers?"

and I answered: (dalam keadaan tersentak tapi pura2 cool) "I chose not to"
then I left.

Actually wearing tudung represents all the other things that are demanded by Islam. Solat 5 waktu, Puasa, Zakat, berbaik2, memperbaiki diri dan mendekatkan diri kepada Tuhan.

Kalau kau tidak pernah bertanya kenapa diri kau kenapa tidak buat semua itu, hati kau mungkin sakit. lagi sakit dari hati aku yang memang dah sakit tenat pun masa itu.

soalan itu aku bawa sampai pulang sabah.
Aku rindu Allah. Macam semua orang lain juga. Cuma ramai yang tidak sedar yang mereka sedang merindu.

Jadi aku cuba selangkah kembali. By wearing my tudung

But ofcourse, it wasnt easy at all.

I wore it for the first time in years. While I was driving, I went crazy with the uneasiness. But I begged Him, Ya Allah, bagi lah aku pakai tudung, kurangkan lah ke-geli-an ini..
And suddenly I could distract myself from the feeling and focus on my driving.
After awhile, I accepted the fact. Most of the time I still could go crazy over the geli2-an, but I try to control it.

Yang penting itu satu langkah ke hadapan.

Then He let my husband and I meet and wed. I am happy. I am now for one man and one man only. my beauty is only for him.

And we both are still finding our way towards Him. together. Helping each other.

111: "i got stuck in front of a tv; what should I do?"

IKLAN jap; dari penaja anda..

The Idiot box.

[gets to be more intelligent than us]

Make sure you spend more time not watching it nor referring to it.

merely a personal opinion. :)

110: comic "tudung dan saya"

Aku bukan mau buka pekung di dada.
I only hope that this story can trigger some thoughts and maybe ignite some sense into who ever that's reading this.

Ini cerita pasal "tudung dan saya"

Aku mulakan dengan cerita masa kanak2.

that's my siblings and I in mommy's old yellow van.. Me sitting in front sebelah mama. We really liked to stick out our heads and feel the wind. Tapi aku lain sikit. I couldnt stand the wind blowing through my neck. until i was forced to cover my neck while going crazy against the wind heheh

okay. so, as I was growing up, I did not wear the tudung. I would only tie my hair; the hair did not bring any trouble back then. That is how I would look like through out my primary school years, until..

I got into a boarding school for my secondary education. I had to wear tudung. Aku tau itu adalah tuntutan agama. Tapi masa itu; I still hadn't really get it. you know. hmm

jadi aku begini:

But, *refer to picture kids in old-yellow-van*, it was not an easy thing to do for a person like me. Geli leher wey. teruk.

teruk macam mana?

the uneasiness that i felt could lead me to keep on looking down, my chin almost kept on sticking on my neck, or I would cover it (my neck) with my my hands, which at times would stress me out..kadang2 sampai aku sakit kepala.. :|

tu gambar x-ray.

Oleh sebab itu...

I wore tudung at my high school, but I took it off while I was back home in Sandakan.

Mak pun slalu tanya: "bila mau pakai tudung bagus2?"

tapi aku saja yang faham pasal 'penyakit' geli ni..

To be honest, I didnt want to take off my tudung because of my hair. Because, as you can see below: this was my real hair. back then.

Yep. the lion hair. Sebenarnya, aku selalu mengejutkan orang di asrama aku bila aku bangun pagi dengan wajah ini.

"In a way, I realized that I wore tudung because I wana hide the lion-hair. When actually I was dying to take it off...and because it's a 'must'.."

Jadi, that was what happened. Wearing tudung became only a habit. And because my hair was getting worse as I grew older, I always had my hair as a bun to hide the ugliness of it. Sampai my younger sister asked me, "why do you always have to look like a nanny?"

bongok.

ya..ia jadi habit.

A meaningless habit.

I know it was a meaningless habit because wearing tudung didnt stop me from doing evil things... :'(

dan hati aku menjadi kosong...kosong. *dan sesungguhnya, aku tau, dari sekolah lagi, fitrah manusia punya hati pasti rindu pada Penciptanya..aku masih terus mencari-cari*

[to be continued]

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